So, it is 3:00 in the morning. I don't feel bad. I just can't sleep.
So, I thought I would jot down some observations of my experience of this chemo thing after two treatments:
The first five or so days are a blur of drugs and lots of sleeping and being cared for by Gary (and Windy when she was here).
Then I seem to kind of wake up. Weepy. Can't seem to get through a conversation without crying.
Then, just when my mind comes alive, my body gives out...can't get through a shower without having to sit down!
Then I get hungry and eat and eat. (Annie and Michael and Stacy, I thank you!)
People do the kindest things...foot rubs from Gary and Michael
Then I considered it a huge victory to make it to Target and back on my own!
Then it is time to do it all over again.
I was awake then too! But I had an excuse (on call).
ReplyDeleteLet it be known that you are surviving the strongest poisons we give people, at an interval that is as tight as it gets. And you are doing it with grace and humor.
We are all awed. Whether or not you make it to Target.
Love you.
You are a Mueller Woman! You can cry, sleep and eat with the best of us! I am so sorry these nasty meds are tormenting you. Thank you to Windy for the insight so we know the why of it when we don't like it! I am looking for the beaches, rivers and birds in your future to come soon! Hugs and prayers from Wisconsin!
ReplyDeleteYou are so strong; I am continually amazed by you.
ReplyDeleteHugs & more hugs!!!
Target will be there tomorrow...You are amazing. I don't know if I could be as strong. You don't have to "do" anything, or "be" anywhere if you don't want to. Love you so much!
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